I know that I’m changing because
I’ll be in a moment         and I won’t recognize       the moment
Even though nothing has changed –
Not my environment not my skin not my daily rituals and habits.
I still
won’t sleep in front of a mirror
(I get strange dreams some that feel familiar but with foreign noises)
it’s my thoughts that have changed.
I’m wading into deeper water a wider, more open
Plane.

Semipiternal

Out at sea the sun

was shining;

but only in one place,

like a silver dish

on the rain-darkened water.

A single whale

sated with love,

steaming north from Baja,

was too distant to see,

but we could

see where he was breathing:

a tree made of water

and filled with silver light

appeared on the air,

already falling,

and after a whale-breath,

reappeared-

the selfsame form-

a little farther

north each time.

– James Galvin

“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.”