“The world is our consciousness, and it surrounds us. There are more things in mind, in the imagination than “you” can keep track of – thoughts, memories, images, angers, delights, rise unbidden. The depths of mind, the unconscious, are our inner wilderness areas, and that is where a bobcat is right now. I do not mean personal bobcats in personal psyches, but the bobcat that roams from dream to dream. The conscious agenda-planning ego occupies a very tiny territory, a little cubicle somewhere near the gate, keeping track of some of what goes in and out (and sometimes making expansionistic plots), and the rest takes care of itself. The body is, so to speak, in the mind. They are both wild. ”

– From “The Etiquette of Freedom” by Gary Snyder

I know that I’m changing because
I’ll be in a moment         and I won’t recognize       the moment
Even though nothing has changed –
Not my environment not my skin not my daily rituals and habits.
I still
won’t sleep in front of a mirror
(I get strange dreams some that feel familiar but with foreign noises)
it’s my thoughts that have changed.
I’m wading into deeper water a wider, more open